Time To Speak Out
Art is an emotional journey for any artist. For each new piece they must dig down deep inside them and find out what it truly is that they want to convey to the world. This is something that I'm learning, as usually before most of my art has been off of a reference photo. It's not a bad thing for an artist to use a reference photo as it's part of the learning process. But there comes a time when as an artist, it's time to move on. It's time to tell the world what you really want.
I don't know how many times I have personally lay in bed conjuring up paintings. I've never actually painted one that I've thought about. Partially because I just never thought I was good enough. I love the safety of a reference photo in the fact that I can't go wrong. If my painting isn't working out I can study the photo and find out where I've gone wrong. Well, it's time to move on and learn how to get out the paintings that I have in my head. I don't want to just be an artist who creates pretty art. I want to speak to the world what I feel and hopefully find people that relate. I know every artist thinks that they are going to be the ones to change the world. It is every artist dream to provoke thought and be a stir amongst the world of philosophers.
Paintings have been in my head since I started painting and honestly I feel like now is the time to paint them. I'm working on a new series that I've titled 'Remembrance' in honour of my Mother. When you lose some one you love there is no end to grief, only a way of learning to live with it. I really feel the need to relate with others who are going through their grief. I'm not eloquent enough with my words and honestly the only place I feel I have the most accurate way of putting anything down is on a piece of canvas. I have several different ideas in my head almost mapped out in detail for these paintings.
I went to Israel right after my mom passed away. Spring time in Israel brings out the wild poppies and I fell in love with that small red flower. Not only is it the iconic symbol of remembering but for me it also reminds me of the time when my grief was still fresh. In my paintings I hope to incorporate the poppy. There are certain world issues that are close to my heart as well. Perhaps I'll only be an artist. But if my paintings can have an impact on one person then it was worth the time to paint it. I'm looking forward to this journey of painting using my own emotions as my reference. Perhaps if anything, looking deeper in myself will help me make sense of what I feel and bring some kind of closure. It's time to let the world know what I need to say, using the only way I know how. With my brush and canvas.
